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dear christine alexis gillian,
really, what is there to say to you that you don't already know? we've been friends since the summer, and we've grown so close along the whole way. we've had tons of fallouts, but nothing to ever break us. in the summer, when ever we were at parties or out with a group of people, we always just stuck together, without really ever realizing we did it. it started the day we set up zumiez when we did transfers together, than set up the hoodie wall, and just did what the other did for the rest of the night. we followed eachother at parties and were attached at the hip. we have so many good memories from the summer, and have gone through everything together. for the first time i feel like i actually have a best friend. i've never shared with anyone else the bond that you and i share. it's something that i could never have with any one else, and a bond that maybe no one would ever understand. nothing is finalized, complete, etc unless you know.
people used to think we were twins, or at least sisters, and people started commenting on how we looked similar, yet we didn't notice it. now-a-days, were known as "caitlin and christine". people even call us eachothers names on accident, and i think it's funny. i really don't know what i would do without you. we understand what the other is saying, even when its maybe only 2 words, and everyone else is like "can you please finish?".
after usually a month, someone can consider someone their "best friend", but our friendship has grown for over the past 9 months and just keeps getting stronger.
merging. need i say more?, our sleepovers, bahama mama, sitting in bathrooms, our adventures, "we can be so mean!", our theories, GIRLFRIEND, picking apart everything, our bench at steves, getting lost in the borgata parking lot, gil & brow, being bums, "i have to poop", mike chasing us with his car in the woods, our random conversations, "i just saw a huge eye with a cat", dancing, our part in 'snap yo fingas', and so much more and more to come.
i love you so much, and i love that your my best friend and no one could ever replace the spot in my heart that you've made for yourself. i could go on and on about how much i love you and how much you mean to me, but i shall end it here. i love you !!!!!!!!!!
( good memories )
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life is good:
i'll be 18 next month. score.
the anticipation for summer is killing me.
all my time is spent with tine, lauren, dana, vince, sean, alex, and sometimes spencer.
it's a cute lil family.
i've been losing weight the healthy way.
i'm pretty happy, and i love saying it and meaning it.
( random ass pictures )
sometimes I'm scared that things
could be so much better than this
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[13 Mar 2007|11:42pm] |
the past few times Keith and I have been together, we've made a fire and laid on the couch with eachother watching movies. it's the best feeling in the world, saying nothing at all, but it meaning everything in the world.
I'm really happy that we're working everything out and trying to make us work.
I get to see my best friend tomorrow too =].
( random pictures )
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[08 Mar 2007|01:05am] |
I was reading old journals, and found so many old pictures.
They tickled me a bit.
( some )
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[07 Mar 2007|02:20pm] |
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I can't wait for the warm weather so I can go sit out on my back porch, smoke a cigarette, and write all my thoughts on paper like I used to when my parent's didn't know I smoked.
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[27 Feb 2007|07:58pm] |
I have an infection of the cartilidge around my ribs.
Go me.
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[14 Feb 2007|11:50pm] |
I really don't like pictures of me anymore.
Valentine's Day, Valentine's Day, Valentine's Day.
Keith gave me a bracelet, bouqet of lollipops, and a poem he wrote =]. I teared up while I was reading it because it was just so sweet and unexpected.
We ate at McDonald's. How romantic. But, we're both broke, and it was nice just spending time with him tonight.
And tonight was the first night we exchanged "I love you's". I couldn't be anymore happier.
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[04 Feb 2007|10:41pm] |
1. reply with your name and i will write something i like about you.
2. i will then tell what song reminds me of you.
3. if i were to apply an o'clock to you, i'll tell you what it would be.
4. i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. i'll tell you the most memorable moment i've had with you.
6. i will tell you what color you remind me of.
7. i'll then tell you something that i've always wondered about you.
Do ittttttttttttttttttt
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[03 Feb 2007|08:34am] |
So much is running through my head. I went to bed at 12AM, not only to wake up 2 hours later.
My legs are all tingly, and I guess their "restless". I feel like I should walk around, but their so stiff.
People are really upsetting me. I just want to drop everything, leave, and start all over.
=( I wish I would hear from him.
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[29 Jan 2007|10:42pm] |
I finally got to see me therapist after 2 weeks, and I feel SOOOOO much better about everything.
I realized that I save up everything till I see her, and I barely express or talk about how I feel to really anyone anymore but her. I think she knows me better than I know myself.
She was telling me that I should build an higharchy(sp?) of my friends who I can tell things too, the ones I can bull shit with, etc. And really, she's the one I tell everything too.
I always feel so releived after I see her, than over the week, everything builds up and I get all antsy.
She also told me that I might be falling into an "agitation depression", cause lately I've been getting extremely angry over little things and yelling at people. She said it might be a good thing to actually let people know when their bothering me, but to be able to control it more and make it less upsetting to the person.
Hopefully I'm on the right track to getting better.
I got to see Keith today as well. Two weeks of not seeing him was getting old, but I liked the way I felt when I saw him today. All butterflies in my stomach and getting all giggly. I love the way he makes me feel :).
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[28 Jan 2007|02:21pm] |
I repierced my lip last night, and this morning my mom saw it and made me take it out. So much stabbing with needles and shit, just for it to come right back out.
"As long as you live in my house, no piercings on your face. Once you move out you can make yourself look like a freak all you want".
I want to do it on my 18th birthday, but that's 4 months away.
I doubt if I had even mentioned I pierced my lip, I really don't think you would've noticed it.
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[19 Jan 2007|07:12pm] |
I just put my foot in my trash can.
fuck.
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[02 Jan 2007|01:22am] |
New Years Eve was amazing. I saw people I haven't seen in a long time and it was nice. Alex was my New Years Eve kiss since Keith wasn't there haha. Than Sam Grosshoe and Emma were my others.
I wish I could go back to last night.
Click to see all the pictures
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[29 Dec 2006|04:18pm] |
I guess my break has been interesting. Lots of drama though. But oh well.
Here are pictures
( skippy zu zu )
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[26 Dec 2006|06:28pm] |
Yesterday didn't really feel like Christmas to me.
In the beginning it was horrible. Towards the end of the night it got better though.
My mom and I watched Dane Cook's Vicious Circle, than Little Woman. Christian Bale<33333. We talked about a lot and I felt better about everything. I just wish yesterday had felt more like Christmas, but as I get older, each year is less and less of the spirit.
Hope everyone enjoyed theirs.
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[22 Dec 2006|01:02am] |
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As crazy as I might sound... I think I might want to become a Suicide Girl....
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[20 Dec 2006|08:59pm] |
I'm tired of being sick. I've been sick since Friday, and I'm feeling a little better today.
I didn't go to school Monday or yesterday, and left early today cause I started bugging out from my meds and my teachers thought I was high.
I have yet another sinus infection, and my bronkitis might be coming back.
Saturday is the Christmas party, I'm really excited for that.
I got Alyssa, Jade, Kt, Jarek, Vince, Tine, and Tori their stuff. I just need to get Alex's and something else for Jarek and I'll be done. Sami and Eddie are already done.
I hate thinking people hate me, cause it ruins about 99.9% of my friendships. I wish I could get over that cause I've already lost Sami and Kt cause I'm retarded and thought that. Now I might be fucking Alyssa and I up.
I wish I had a different brain.
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